We each have a battle that we said we would work through. 
We try to take a big look at it all but then we soon realize that our battles are hard & painful. Ignoring them seems to be the answer. 
So we do. 
Ignoring the pain feels better than accepting the challenge that will stay there. It only feels okay for a short amount of time until we explode. Hit rock bottom. Break. 

Breaking into pieces is hard and more than painful. 
It is the entrance into being numb. 
So here I am. Sitting here being numb. Trying to ignore the pain. But the numbness is wearing off. 

And the challenge is still here.