i seem

i seem to always not being able to blog about something worthy enough i guess.

i just don't feel the desire to like i used to.

before it was all about doing it for the sake of people reading, now i couldn't care less.

to you my one reader in their parents basement in Missouri, thank you. you are a kind follower.

it seems that blogging now a days seems to be done because "everyone else is doing it"

but, i guess, now that my life has slowed down some, but also picked up, i find myself not worrying about it as much.

sure, i will write, but knowing that someone reads this won't validate how i feel.

sure, praise is always nice. humans crave praise, even for the simplest things. but i don't feel as if i need it to keep me writing.

there fellow bloggers. i might just have said what most of you are thinking.

but then again, maybe i have not.

on a different note, life is going good.

i have wonderful friends and family.

i am ending my senior year and moving on to college, but i will let you in on a secret, i am terrified. not really for that actual college experience, but that my two best friends will no longer see me as their friend. i don't want to leave them, because truth is, i love them more than anything.

sure, i can see my family any ol'e day. but these two best friends of mine, max and robyn, are worth me crying over the fact that i have to leave them.

if either of you are reading this, i want you to know that.

but also, COME VISIT ME YOU SKANKS!

i'm not gone yet, what am i talking about? who knows.

i'm out.

cyaaaaaaaaaaaaa.