do you ever?

have those days where it starts out just okay.

then goes to good.

then to bad.

then to good.

then to okay.

then to great.

and just when the day is ending, it get's fantastic?

i have those days alot.

especially today.

there has been lots on my mind lately.

family.

friends.

school.

tests.

grades.

college.

music.

personal goals.

service.

and i don't know if i can really do it.

sometimes i get so stressed and can't think.

i feel like i get stuck in a limbo of self worthlessness.

then i'm of use to no one.

but other times, i feel as good as can be.

and everything goes right.

and i love things.

things like to fall apart all at once.

but luckily for me, things are getting there.

not quite horrible.

not quite amazing.

just an in between.

but i still feel like there can be more.

it's almost like i'm missing something.

and it's driving me crazy not knowing what it is.

i'm almost helpless.

but this time, i think of a quote from this last General Conference;

"you're doing better than you think you are."

and that makes me feel better when it seems that nothing else will.

to me it says,

-you may feel like your failing at everything, but you're really not. your doing so much better than your wordly mind thinks you are. be more spiritually in tune.-

and so there is my answer,

now all i need to do is work on it.

on another subject,

this is a short week.

i'm so excited.

fall break will be good.

i can tell it will be full of fun grand adventures.

yippie!