-wanted to talk to someone so bad you considered lying about something, just to get a chance to just talk with them?
-cried so hard you fell down and can't breathe?
-seem to watch your life go by, and your stuck in one continuous limbo of sad?
-felt so bad that the only cure is to hold your breath as long as you can until you pass out?
-wanted to stay in your bed all day because it's a safe place?
-want to talk to someone so bad about your problems, you considered speeding by a cop just so he'll pull you over so you can talk? (crazy one, i know.)
-watch in numbness while your day goes by you forget to eat, bathe or do anything to make yourself presentable and healthy?
-not even put make up on, because you know it will be gone an hour after it's put on?
-or even sat in the dark because it feels more comfortable than constant stares?
-cried so hard you fell down and can't breathe?
-seem to watch your life go by, and your stuck in one continuous limbo of sad?
-felt so bad that the only cure is to hold your breath as long as you can until you pass out?
-wanted to stay in your bed all day because it's a safe place?
-want to talk to someone so bad about your problems, you considered speeding by a cop just so he'll pull you over so you can talk? (crazy one, i know.)
-watch in numbness while your day goes by you forget to eat, bathe or do anything to make yourself presentable and healthy?
-not even put make up on, because you know it will be gone an hour after it's put on?
-or even sat in the dark because it feels more comfortable than constant stares?
if so, welcome to the club.
i'd be glad to chat with you sometime.
i think we'd both need it.
i havent had this hard of a day in a while.
it's not just one big thing.
but all the little things coming together right now.
one is Blake.
such a cool kid. he will be missed.
but oddly, i feel peace about it. he is in such a better place.
but still, won't take away the pain of his family and close friends.
i know we'll all miss, even if we wern't good friends with him.
i'd be glad to chat with you sometime.
i think we'd both need it.
i havent had this hard of a day in a while.
it's not just one big thing.
but all the little things coming together right now.
one is Blake.
such a cool kid. he will be missed.
but oddly, i feel peace about it. he is in such a better place.
but still, won't take away the pain of his family and close friends.
i know we'll all miss, even if we wern't good friends with him.
sometimes i find God funny. not in a bad way. but like, He challenges me so much.
and about things i don't want to be challenged with.
He is funny, but in the long run- it's so worth it. and i know it's what He has planned for me.
even though it's hard.
so love your life, God has a way of teaching us lessons we never thought we would have learned.
and also, don't let the death of a friend, or perhaps some other trial make us appreciate life more.
appreciate it every day. tell the ones you love that you love them.
it's honestly not too hard. they need to know.
be of service every day.
compliment at least 3 people a day.
pray and love.
and just watch, your life will be so much happier.
i promise.
God bless.
i love you guys.
woooo hoooo!
and about things i don't want to be challenged with.
He is funny, but in the long run- it's so worth it. and i know it's what He has planned for me.
even though it's hard.
so love your life, God has a way of teaching us lessons we never thought we would have learned.
and also, don't let the death of a friend, or perhaps some other trial make us appreciate life more.
appreciate it every day. tell the ones you love that you love them.
it's honestly not too hard. they need to know.
be of service every day.
compliment at least 3 people a day.
pray and love.
and just watch, your life will be so much happier.
i promise.
God bless.
i love you guys.
woooo hoooo!
1 comment:
Mardi, I happened upon your blog while reading on Blake's fb page. He truly was a great kid and I am absolutely heartbroken, he was like a part of our family, in fact he was babysitting my kids with my sis just a few weeks ago, thanks for your post it is great advice :)
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