very recently i have decided to make a list.
lists make me feel ordered,
structured,
and safe.
with most things at least
so, i am making one.
THINGS I NEED TO DO THIS JUNIOR YEAR:
1. Learn how to drive a stick shift (anyone want to teach me??)
2. Go to Red Mango at least once a week
3. Read War and Peace by the last day of school
4.Make it through school
5. Gain a stronger testimony of my Savior
6.Be of service at least 3 times a week
7. Get a boyfriend, or just a boy that is my best friend
8. Hang out with the cool kids for once. (HA!)
9. Finish the Book of Mormon
10. Try not to kill my math teacher
11. Get more than 50 blog followers
12. Get at more than 5 comments on every blog. HAHAH
13. Ace the ACT and SAT
14. Make a pie
15. Have a photoshoot with my friends
16. Go white water rafting
17. Go to Europe
18. Go to lots of concerts
19. Go to prom (yeah, probably not)
20. Go to the temple at least once a week
21. Learn how to sew
22. Find myself
23. And be okay with who I am
24.Defeat a video game
25. & Have fun.
yeah, i know. your probably like, wow. those seem to be just normal.
but to me, they will be something good for me to do.
i don't want to waste this year.
even though i hate it so far.
things are much harder than i thought they would be
friendships get tested.
my faith is shaken
and my heart is heavy.
sometimes i feel like it will never end, and that i will be stuck in this limbo forever
i so hope this isn't the case.
i've had to rely more on my friends, family and faith,
even though at times i question them all
but in the long run, i know it's just a test for me
and i need to prove my strength and devotion
i can do this.
because i can do hard things.
but most importantly, i know that if i waver at all, i will have someone to help me
at all times.
and that's probably the most comforting part to me.
lists make me feel ordered,
structured,
and safe.
with most things at least
so, i am making one.
THINGS I NEED TO DO THIS JUNIOR YEAR:
1. Learn how to drive a stick shift (anyone want to teach me??)
2. Go to Red Mango at least once a week
3. Read War and Peace by the last day of school
4.Make it through school
5. Gain a stronger testimony of my Savior
6.Be of service at least 3 times a week
7. Get a boyfriend, or just a boy that is my best friend
8. Hang out with the cool kids for once. (HA!)
9. Finish the Book of Mormon
10. Try not to kill my math teacher
11. Get more than 50 blog followers
12. Get at more than 5 comments on every blog. HAHAH
13. Ace the ACT and SAT
14. Make a pie
15. Have a photoshoot with my friends
16. Go white water rafting
17. Go to Europe
18. Go to lots of concerts
19. Go to prom (yeah, probably not)
20. Go to the temple at least once a week
21. Learn how to sew
22. Find myself
23. And be okay with who I am
24.Defeat a video game
25. & Have fun.
yeah, i know. your probably like, wow. those seem to be just normal.
but to me, they will be something good for me to do.
i don't want to waste this year.
even though i hate it so far.
things are much harder than i thought they would be
friendships get tested.
my faith is shaken
and my heart is heavy.
sometimes i feel like it will never end, and that i will be stuck in this limbo forever
i so hope this isn't the case.
i've had to rely more on my friends, family and faith,
even though at times i question them all
but in the long run, i know it's just a test for me
and i need to prove my strength and devotion
i can do this.
because i can do hard things.
but most importantly, i know that if i waver at all, i will have someone to help me
at all times.
and that's probably the most comforting part to me.
sometimes things happen that are bad.
so why do bad things happen to good people?
i don't quite have the answer.
but i do know that we can do all things with our God.
so bring on this hard year.
bring on the trials
bring on the sleepless nights and cold mornings
i am ready.
this doesn''t mean i won't shed a tear or two over my trials
but i won't let it stop me
thats really all.
woo hoo!
so why do bad things happen to good people?
i don't quite have the answer.
but i do know that we can do all things with our God.
so bring on this hard year.
bring on the trials
bring on the sleepless nights and cold mornings
i am ready.
this doesn''t mean i won't shed a tear or two over my trials
but i won't let it stop me
thats really all.
woo hoo!
2 comments:
So I have this one class with you. Your personality is by far my favorite out of anyone I have ever met. No, we aren't friends and I really hope we will get to be. But I just wanted to let you know that you seriously make my day. So thanks.
completely beautiful & well said. i look up to you. stay strong mardi, you can do it. you & i both.
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